~heart whispers~

Confusion (abstract thoughts)

2006-09-26T15:26:00.000+08:00

It has always been said, for generations; Life's consists of choices. The choices we make, the decisions we considered, always a balance of two; Mind and Heart.

How would one know which to follow? How would one know which is right? or wise? or ideal?

To forgive is always divine.

Now, understood. For one to do so takes so much.

love, pain, hate, sad, anger.

mixtures of feelings. no logic. no justification. no rationale. Senseless.

But why do we choose to do so? why forgive? Our hearts say so? The heart that gives us that emotional complication?

The mind thinks.

As opposed to the heart.

making sense of emotions, making meaning, making implications, making conclusions.

..ACCEPTANCE..

severe testing.

acceptance of character, acceptance of family, acceptance of career, acceptance of friends, acceptance of MISTAKES.

acceptance of mistakes -> heart contradicts mind

conclusion.................................................................??

..confusion..

sigh, adly

BLOG REOPENED!

2006-09-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

Alright frens.. i'm kinda setting up this blog again... after a few years...

oh and by any chance u guys wanna speak ur hearts out to me, just shoot..

Tapi mesti yg sopan lah... yg mcm setan tu, boleh go to hell di bawah.. lagipon nak puasa kawan2...

hehe.. like real..

and brader amin! wa lama tak jumpa... senang2 call... kita sahur sama sama... hehe...

Kawan aku famous ah...

2005-02-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

In its debut episode, Remaja...X-syen! meets a very shy and introverted Adli. His lack of confidence often results in stage frights and mistakes during stage performance with the local indie rock band - DHARMA. However, this 21-year old polytechnic student, harbours a burning desire to be a professional drummer. So, Remaja-Xyen comes to the rescue with 3 challenges to transform this introvert into a wannabe rock star. These challenges include a complete image and wardrobe makeover, an Xtreme challenge to overcome his fear of heights and finally - to perform his first ever drum solo performance. Will he make it ? Join us to find out !

I'm loving it!! Jangan lupa tontoni Adly ya kawan kawan di SURIA!!!!!! Sinaran Hidup Anda..

thee hee..

2005-02-05T17:06:00.000+08:00

La Illah... apa saja lah orang-orang ni.. It was all out of pure joke and here u guys are making such a big fuss out of all these.. come on.. Face it lah.. Even superstars face all these problems.. and i find it rather weird... Tini tak cakap apa-apa yang menyibuk entah siapa.. hmm... So LAME.. and fyi dear readers, bloghoppers etc etc, I have my own thoughts,this is a free world, I can say what I want.. My conscience is clear, IT WAS ALL A PURE JOKE.. and Adly, I'm not mad at u.. I'm having fun seeing the reactions of all these people.. It shows how a single label imposed on them can really tick people off.. Now I'm seeing sociologist's theories at work.. wakaka.. Like u said, I dun noe them, so.. to hell with them.. I have no time for them.. I'd rather have some intellectual talks probably like issues pertaining to juvenile delinquents, human sexuality, deviance, the difference between illness behaviour and preventive health behavior?? anyway.. sesapa yang terasa.. jangan marah ler.. seperti kata pepatah, sapa yang makan cili dialah yang terasa pedas.. balas cik Lin.. BALAS... :p

club!

2005-02-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

(continuation) k now.. after the suicide n stuff, i saw my fren yesterday, he's ok. i heard when he went to vicky's funeral, he cried like hell. oh boy... kesian kawan aku ni.. now.. back to NORMAL!!! tadaaaah!!! hehe.. well now.. i went to this club and watched my frend's band there. my my my!! delillah!!! disappointing.. but they got some good singers there. well they're ok at least. one of the singers is this lady. cool babe.. sexy babe more accurately.. hehe.. but she's actually quite ok.. i compliment abt her to my friend eddy and her tot that i was head over heels with the babe.. juz a slight rewind: i used to be attracted to tis female singer frm One Night Stand. and they all are like thinking i'm feelin the same for this lady here.. tak senonoh kan? pompuan kalau muda takpe.. dah terang terang dia umur dah tiga posen.. dah lah.. beta nak turn in.. harap dpt mimpi Mira

(~sleep~)

ADLY APPEARING ON TV!!!

2005-01-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

Catch Adly on Remaja Xsyen... hahahaha.. Aku tolong kau publicise tau.. hee hee...

2004-12-21T01:48:00.000+08:00

ni lah adly masa muda2 dulu.. kira anak metro jugaklah ni.. haha!

trippin' Billies

2004-12-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

woah.. muka nak fierce.. skali aku flying kick kan.. takdelah ni sebenarnye tgh fikir... stress, nak cari ilham buat lagu.. hmm.. specifically, song bout tis girl i know... madame FARAH FARHANAH VIERRA.. (bunyi dah mcm mak nenek! hehe) these few dayz, been doin things here and there.. got a little flu..werked over the weekends and practice some stuff in studio.. same goes today.. brought in a new bassist and played crap.. haiyah.. mangkuk jugak jadinya aku ni.. oh yeah, i got 'bubble' by FARAH.. kesian adly, dikenakan perempuan.. haha.. padan muka aku.. ku tunggu mcm buah tak jatuh.. haaaiiizzz... takpelah.. maybe some other day luck'll be on my side... i read this stuff.. kinda cool.. and quite true on wat they say abt women.. hehe.. kalau si farihana baca, mati aku..

The top six reasons computers must be female:

6. As soon as you have one, a better one is just around the corner.

5. No one but the creator understands the internal logic.

4. Even your smallest mistakes are immediately committed to memory for future reference.

3. The native language used to communicate with other computers is incomprehensible to everyone else.

2. The message "Bad Command or File Name" is about as informative as"If you don't know why I'm mad at you, then I'm certainly not going to tell you".

AND THE NUMBER ONE REASON COMPUTERS ARE FEMALE: As soon as you make a commitment to one, you find yourself spending half of your paycheck on accessories for it.

amacam?? betol tak gang!?(tanya yg si lelaki2!) haha..

kata-kata manis si dara..

2004-12-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

Jeng Jeng Jeng.. Look who's in the house??? Si Dara lah..siap dengan gambar lagi..hee hee.. Maaf lah jarang update.. I leave the dirty job to my fren here.. He got nutting to do also wat.. haha.. Oh well.. I am having my holidays now after a horrible semester.. Apa aku buat sejak holiday.. Hmm.. Selain dari tido, aku merayap.. tu pun kadang kadang.. sejak dua menjak ni, saya malas nak jalan-jalan also.. Hmm... To the frequent visitors to this blog, rajin-rajin lah baca luahan hati Si Adly ni eh..kalau ada sapa-sapa interested kat si mamat ni, I can help.. He masih available not like me.. I am always taken.. hahahaha... Oh ya.. If u wanna read mine, go to my own blog at http://sungguhmenjeng.blogspot.com.. hee hee.. Sampai disini saja.. Salam sayang peluk cium.. hee hee.. p/s:Adly.. Lawah lah gambar "mak" aku.. CUNNNNNNNN.... gi lah tackle dia.. kwang kwang kwang...

Miss Vierra, Farah!

2004-12-17T01:18:00.000+08:00

this girl here

Ni adly buat untuk farah! ta daaahh!!!

a smile is cheer to you and me the cost is nothing..its given free it comforts the weary..gladdens the sad consoles those in trouble..good or bad to rich and poor.. beggar or thief its free to all of any belief a natural gesture of young and old cheers on the faint... disarms the bold unlike most blessing for which you pray its one thing you keep when you give it away

Reeha, Lovehunters & kita budak2 kecik..

2004-11-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

Eddy on guitars.. and on drums.. guess who?? hehe..

Eddy nasib baik, pakai guitar Rosli. aku dapat drum setting betol kejong nye..Rock steady semua kluar mcm tak steady.. k... yesterday.. i went to this club Moon Night. we watched the two rock bands Reeha and Lovehunters.chat wit em..everythin's aight..skali time balik gi kedai kopi prata seorang 3 keping ngan teh susu... semua kita sapu time hujan2 lebat..balik, kita ingat nak naik teksi.. In The End, It doesnt even matter.. haha..jalan sikit punye sikit.. end up jalan sampai Clementi. From tanjong pagar to clementi singing in the rain...tapak kaki naik melecet..me n eddy, long talk.. abt people, religion, life, music, work, girls n girlfrenz.. heheh..reach home at 6:15am.kaki aku dah lembab.. pakai kasut lagi.. naik ronyok kulit..si eddy lagi kaki jalan.. but it was great..oh yeah.. and b4 we went moon night.. kita singgah jugak kat One Night Stand. tempat jas main..i saw EMIRA.. damn.. eddy wanted to leave soon.. can get to say hi to her...damn.. i asked eddy abt her when we were walkin home.. eddy also admits her looks..hehe... kalau ikutkan mcm budak2 semua, dah lama aku peluk2 dgn dia..

Rock dont say die!

2004-11-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

Yazid, Faisal, Jali.. wak wak asal boleh...

k now, inilah wak wak kat club Moonlight.Aight friends.. if u dont know these guyz, lemme explain; the guy sitting,he is Yazid. Vocalist for a rock band called Lovehunters.(the band who played Ku Ukirkan NamaMu & Sambutlah Kasih) Yazid

Now tis guy is cool. real cool. He's really a mat. But not the mat kental yg seluar tapered(is that the correct spelling?), dye rambut, and thick gel all over.the way he talks.. kelakar seram..now then, he sings, definitely rock. been askin ard.. askin a few musician abt yazid, he's voice is a real Coverdale.Man(man kidal) told me when they toured m'sia, no one have yazid's voice. most of the guys there are archik spin, mat mat rock budak kecik..background a little; coincidentally, yazid always hang out under void deck of ghim moh playin guitar and singin.... my mom frequently listens to him when they're young. Became frens eventually & bla bla.. Faisal

(the middle guy)hmm.. not much known.. he drives taxi in johor. he works clubs at nite..his band is Reeha. When this pic is taken (which was yesterday nite), reeha and lovehunters are workin back to back.. quite havoc..faisal's voice exactly like led zep's.not exaggerating.. need to hear to believe.. Jali (the bald one)

this guy, entah macam mana wak ni leh pegang mic pon aku tak tau.. haha..kelakar gile.. nampak je brutal.. garang... tapi bleh pecah perut aku ketawa tgk gelagat si dia ni..he's actually a drummer for Reeha. A good one indeed. real punchy. real consistent.but when he sings.. oh my god... unbelievable.. cant sing for nuts! hahaa..damn funny guy.. these bunch of WAKs are the best..learn lotsa things from them.. as a musician and as people/friends...man.. now problem is, when i start hangin out wit em, i'm startin to be like Eddy, my friend.cant mix too much wit people of our age.. dgn kita2 skali jadi wak obit! haha..TGK JALI! AKU SHAVE KEPALA AKU PASAL DIA LAH! STYLE.. GARANG.. IMAGE STRONG BEBEH!

~jeng jeng jeng~

2004-11-19T01:59:00.000+08:00

"dah ready for date... nak jumpa mat tahir..." ready for date huh?? haha.. dgn anak dara mana agaknye.. aniwaes, got my results.. despite my breakup just last semester, it was really a surprise i can make it thru.. i am still surprise now... Advanced Multi-Track Recording -> A World Issues: A Singapore Perspective -> A Black & White Darkroom Photography -> B+ Specialist Project A -> B Managing Events Communication -> C Media Law -> C funny thing... 2 As, 2 Bs, 2 Cs. well, there ups, there downs.. me msg yaya today; haha, she hates workin... her attachment sucks..(so she claims) my dear dear dear yaya.. itulah kerja! hahah.. macam mana si tini tu keje skarang eh? mesti enjoy... tgh steam dayak.. sengsara? mungkin tak, si tini suka keje apa... shouldnt be hard for her.. kesian budak dua tu, tsk tsk tsk... tapi bagus jugak... harap diaorang belajar.. dua tiga hari ni, terpikir pikir jugak pasal tini.. macam mana agak nye dia skarang eh? ..kwang kwang kwang.. fun jugak kalau tgk benda baru yg ada dgn budak tu.. eh?? jgn jgn sama jugak.. hari raya gini teringat ingat masa aku bujang bujang dgn dia tu.. maklumlah, skarang dah tua.perut aku dah terkeluar. tini pon muka dah ronyok.. hehe... tak baik aku.. well, wonder how she's been.. of coz, if i were to ask her personally, she admit she's joyful, exceptionally happy wit her life and herself bla bla bla & all that crap.. *scratch head* skarang tgh malam jumaat.. tadi kat tv cita exorcist pulak muncul.. mampus.. otak skarang tgh merayau rayau dgn image hantu semua.. now real excited and anxious.. never actually told anione yet... tml i'm gonna see emira again.. wonder how she's been... shuld be as cute as ever.. wat should i wear? wat perfume do i use? how should i style my hair? well, i'm G.I. for goodness sake.. oh yeah, next week, i'm finally gonna be in a shoot for Suria's reality tv. excited as hell.. gonna be fun.. my family, friends and band members gonna be involved.. heard they gonna have me meet Jatt and ramli sarip to get some tips for my total make-over; in terms of image, performing live and drum stuff.. *yawn.. well.. gonna eat somethin then go 2 sleep..* see u now, bye bye then..

camat hari raya...

2004-11-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum... Firstly I wanna wish u "selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin".. kalau time kita bebual, be it on the phone ke, kat msn ke, time kita relak relak ke, aku ada menyinggung perasaan kau tu, sorry jer lah ya.. thanks for being such a great buddy.. tak ku sangka dah almoz 8 years kita berkawan eh.. walaupun tak rapat, i muz say u have really been one of the best guy friends I had lah.. aku doa-doa cepat lah kau dapat jodoh eh.. jadi kau tak memekak kat telinga aku.. haha.. hopefully sumbody like "ehem ehem" lah.. I gotta admit that date u had wif her was absolutely ROMANtIC!! hee hee.. even Syidah said so pe.. hee hee.. before aku continue merepek, have fun this raya and sudi-sudi datang rumah lah ya.. p/s:aku nak dekat exam so tak free nak update.. jgn pester aku for the time being k.. hee hee..

...ole ole ole...

2004-11-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

tonite, i'm not going to blabber and make things up juz to create a new post..right now i'm just going to write what i think.. spontaneously.. now i'm listening to beyonce's Crazy in Love. Reminds me of Emira. She's dancing, holding a cordless mic, on stage.She's wearing a blue tube. whole band's dancing. change song to sweet child of mine. reminds me of Addy playin guitarat barnone and douglas O started singing. This band's more of the older more experienced band compared to emira's band.now i'm just fantasizing myself playin drums, jamming with Mira's band, 6 in the city; playing sweet child of mine. Emira's smiling.i'm there showing my stuff. everyone's dancing ard to e music havin fun wit my playin. everyone's shouting OOH! Sweet Child Of Mine!!! this is how music influence my life. my anger, my sadness, my happiness, my fantasy, my memories most of all...its difficult to live without it.. but too much of it can be a headache.. well now, now listening to Sway... again, its emira.. mira mira mira..she dance like babe.. but no... im no desperate for her.. its juz.. she's a sweet memory..fantasize again, she dancing to the beat of my drums...just fer me.. only fer me...cool.. cool?? nah.. its Hot Hot Hot!tis song... more n more of dance music for mira.. she's dancin more n more in my head..oh, and tis song, tis is when she really danced in front of me... during the secnd time i went to e club, 1 NIGHT STAND.. ok now.. realize that i relate people/place to music.. song by Mariah Carey-Open Arms.. jeng jeng jeng.. tis is songs beautiful... only that when i broke up wit this girl from the east,i was playing this song in my room.. real sad.. and real jiwang..then when i explore more of the outside world.. and meet people like Mira, then i saw.. how Tini, the girl i broke up wit, actually is..leave the feelings aside and evaluate.. Tini is a girl; who seems to not have grown up.. and sometimes me quite ashamed to admit i was with her..wat's got in to me?? hmmm...embarassing..imagine, havin Mira and the guys to knw who i was with... Then there's Mira.. great girl..wat i'd call a woman. got almost everything. hmm.. now, wat am i thinking...?? oh yess... films, and movies.. gotta love them... i love escapism..the world i know now is kinda boring... need to find thrill.. need some drive...i gotta do something.. something big.. something important...movies are like my world... teaches me abt my life, and how to lived it...be a character.. of coz eventually i turned to myself again..i'd try to learn something from the characters. acquire something good from them.weird huh my way of thinking?? i guess i'm different..i wanna be above everyone... in not most of them.. but still i want someone to be there with me..dont wanna be lonely... loneliness can be fatal... i watched tis film called Don Juan Demarco, produced by the one and only Francis Ford Coppola!! Film students!!! fsv frens!! hey guys, gotta check tis film out!!acted by Johnny Depp.. this character is a guy who believes he's the world's greatest lover, Don Juan Demarco..there's this psychic therapist trying to cure him of it. instead, the therapist end up listening to this guy's life story.. which is,Don Juan Demarco's... the therapist listened and tries to follow wat the guy has told in his story.. makin love to his old wife more often and love her, be more passionate, etc..the therapist admits to his patient, the guy, Johnny Depp, that his life is boring.. and that he wants to live in Don Juan's fantasy also..and so.. it ended with Johnny Depp goin to an island to meet his old flame.. with his therapist retiring on the same island with his wife, romantically...who would have tot of such an idea in a film?? great stuff... this movie relates to me alot..cool.. tired man.. gonna rest awhile.. get somethin to eat and then go 2 sleep..gotta jam tml and then just go out wit yaya..

2004-11-05T14:35:00.000+08:00

Wei wei.. Sibuk suruh aku update kan.. Aku update lagi k.. Haizzz.. Nak dekat raya dok.. I have yet to prepare anyting except for my baju.. hahaha.. I am so not in the mood for raya since I have my practical exams on the 18th November.. haha.. This semester sucks man.. I lose sleep.. I fall sick.. I am so stress!!! urgh.. Ni saja lah.. baru bangun lah.. Jap lagi nak teman mummy aku gi Giant.. nak belanja perkakas kuih.. hee hee.. Till I blog again.. byeeeeeeeeee... Btw ad.. tahun ni takde reunion ke? ajak Atika jalan-jalan raya ngan kita ke.. hee hee.. keep me updated k..

-haNNah's UpDaTe-

2004-11-02T18:37:00.000+08:00

Here I am Mr Adly.. Been bugging me to update n update.. anyway.. Give u face lah eh.. disebalik kesibukan aku, I update.. Life has been shitty.. A moment happy another moment depressed.. Currently like a roller coaster ride lah.. and thanks Adly for being there all the time eventhough kau nya advise tu kadang2 tak leh pakai... haha.. But at least u give me the courage to move on yah.. and I admire You for that.. Apa Adly?? hidup best.. jgn kasi complicated sangat.. kalau susah, angkat kaki je.. pandai dia bebual eh.. haizzz.. My exams is juz around the corner.. Juz had a terrible time wif the essay frenzy.. Tmr is the deadline.. and on Thursday, I've theatre studies theory test.. oh my.. I am so sick.. I have a sorethroat.. Adly kau datang visit aku pn mulia ah.. tapi aku takleh bebual ah.. aku tkde suara.. jangan lupa bawak pooh bear tau.. haha... aku dah sod...

..Tribune..

2004-11-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

Hey, this is me ard 2 yrs ago... teringat masa dulu2.. i was in yr 1.i was having lecture. then, wirdani, this friend of mine, called me up askin if i were available.her fren from Mass comm wanted an interview for some band coverage. Ta daaahh!! teros muka ada terpampang kat Tribune Newspaper..this was b4 dharma.. b4 my first relationship.. b4 puberty.. eh eh eh eh!! puberty dah lepas jauh!this was my yr one.. boy... time sure past... let's talk abt today.. today i did nothing but clean the kitchen.. throw stuff away..we got a new rack, new tv and my sis got a new bed..abg dia tak dapat!! *Nangis!!!oh yah.. the kitchen was actually a big mess..when i take out all the kitchen apparatus and stuff at the corner of the cupboard..there's like an infestation.. cockroach of all age, race and religion!!gosh... my sis and bro was shouting like mad.. hehe.. i was also screaming like a little girl..depan diaorang je nak act rambo! then, bla bla bla..we went to auntie's house and break fast..oh yeah..i met a girl online.. and yesterday.. and we made a deal.. that i culd call her that night..i was waiting for her to go online so that we culd exchange no.she didnt appear... haha.. girls.. tsk tsk*so the unpredictable.. skejap nak ni, skejap nak tu..but i think thats the beauty of them... i got a small lecture recently by these bunch of people abt women... not naming who..to protect the innocent..according to them, as men, we muz realise their weakness.. and be in control..tapi jgn lah over-control, as in take advantage.. kesian diaorang...yg lelaki selalu puji matair diaorang sampai ke bumbung selalu, hehe.. jgn jadi lelaki bachul eh..dah macam kental nanti..sayang perempuan ada had nye..tu lah dia..voila! betol jugak cakap diaorang...tapi kalau boleh pon kita semua bahagi sama rata..pasal yg layan matair berlebihan sangat tu, sememangnye menggelikan dan kekentalan terserlah habis... But its sad ya.. my good long time fren,now, he is busy with his gf.. me and him doesnt hang out much animore..and when we came for gigs, he bring his gf and kesedapan memeluk dia.. ahahah... jeng jeng jeng... mati2 macam romeo!aku dulu dgn cewek takdelah berkepit tu macam depan org... kat public pegang tangan pon tgk tempat..apa ah lu.. oh yeah.. he's gonna be engaged to her early next year..gosh.. hate to say it to him but i realli dont think its gonna work out..she's younger than me, and he's like a grandpa! sayang ah..he shuld have chosen a girl ard his age.. oh well... cant say much to him.. i dont even have one girl yet.. haha...

Cak! Anda mau rock!!?? tak nak?? tak nak sudah! haha..

2004-11-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

yupz... this is the page inside... amacam? muka fierce tak? ke macam muka nak kene tampar?? hehe..anihow, this is Dharma.. these are the guys, Jasz, Eddy, DHarma and ME(adly).. aight, i actually got involved with this project with Dharma. This band plays classic rock.the producer think its a good idea since nowadays with Aegyptie and Tribe and all other bands, playing alternative,we probably could bring back those 80's stuff. I kinda agree, but then during shows,we slot i afew raggae n samba stuff.. some sort of a teaser.. got a lot of things need to werk out for this band..haaiiizz.. if this band were to go somewhere.. it'll be great... well, juz have to keep fingers crossed... kita sama2 rock bersama anda!!! Andai kau dibawa ke langit tujuh, kibar sayap mu!!! *lirik digerabak 12, album dharma*

Dah takde apa lagi nak tunjuk.. ini pon jadilah...

2004-11-02T01:20:00.000+08:00

i was spring-cleaning my house.. turning everything upside down.. haha, saw the magazine and coverage of our band..

Bad Dogg..

2004-10-31T17:33:00.000+08:00

As my eyes open, it is immediately blinded by the ray of light from the morning sun. the ambience of the moment is heavenly.As i lay on the mattress in the master bedroom, i thought.. hmm, let's do something... so, I SHAVED! yeahaa!!No more mr.nice guy..(was i ever nice?) my grandma, hates it! hahaha..sorry gramps! juz wanna try out... inilah aku! ku suarakan lagu ku berentak raggae!

hey there, how u doin?

2004-10-31T17:25:00.000+08:00

Wah wah…Its been awhile since I update this thing.. Sorry farihana.. I'm kinda keeping quiet.. tgh busy with my recording… skul stuff.. Skarang kul 4 ptg.. AKU LAPAR!!! (nangis!!) haha Lots have happened during my silence… Ok.. lets start.. Meet new people.. hehe.. specifically new musicians.. I went to “1 Night Stand” at Clarke Quay. The band there is happening. They dance, they rap, they run ard while playing their songs… the audience there cant sit peacefully, they’re being dragged onto dance floor to shake their butts off. Man! Oh yeah, and the singer is beautiful. Insanely hot!! Really can make me drool…Her name's Emira. She’s gotta good voice and she can really dance.. she danced on stage… she danced right in front of me.. and then we had a drink…..openly flirting wit each other… oh boy.. first time doin that kinda stuff.. but it was good.. at least I liked it.. hhehehe… got her number.. but then again… don’t think I’d call her.. hehehe.. that’s the thing most of ma frens don’t understand abt me… heheh.. nehmind, let ‘em wonder… I shaved my head… hehe.. nak tukar image lah katakan.. some loved it.. some hate it.. one of em is my Grandma! Hahah.. she almost got a heart attack…!! No more good boy… now bad dogg…!! But then now hair grew… tot of shavin it again… hmmm…. Hidayah, aka Yaya, called me up yesterday.. hehe.. she asked why I didn’t call her anymore.. hehe.. rindu ke awk?? Haha… sorry, I wanted to be alone for awhile… Hmmm, abt music.. the label called me up this morning… said that there some media coverage on Dharma for hari raya… need to take pics of us in baju kurung.. tis is gonna be fun.. first time see the guys macam budak melayu… hahah… then probably got interview with Warna soon. Hope its gonna be better than the one with Ria. Gosh.. Well that’s it… actually there’s more, but lazy to typelah… heheh… I’ll be back again soon.. *ting*

2004-09-28T01:38:00.000+08:00

WOW.. It's been a while since this blog is updated.. I suppose my dearest Adly is busy wif his school while I am busy wif school too.. It's that time of the year when projects & essays are piling up... and well.. Sorry if we seldom update lah.. Adly has juz proven my hypothesis.. Guys can never keep up with their blogs..

2004-09-16T21:26:00.000+08:00

Another picture of jeff! my ideal choice of vocalist...

2004-09-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

jeff scott soto.. great image.. strong image.. personality fierce.. maybe i'd try to have his image.. cool ey guyz? hahaha.. rock Gates of Babylon!

..my comeback..

2004-09-14T18:24:00.000+08:00

ok now.. my blog is a little crazy now... but wat the hell..

i just woke up frm a deep slumber.. i'm finally myself..

finally thinking straight...

i met Azah yesterday, gosh.. wish i hadnt.. its not abt her.. i have to open my big mouth and ask her abt tini..

really spoils my day..

but anyway, i'm sort of ok with it...

azah can ask me... so anione new in mind? azah, i realli wish i have.. but u knw me.. i'm choosy girl.. apa mau cari.. if a girl comes, she comes... if not.. no point finding babe! (cakap nak sedap je)

haha..

kalau aku ni buaya, bolehlah kau tanya.. apa je... hahaha...

well, today, i met izzat and his fren, name? who knows... heard that izzat's been takin motor license without his mom knowing, haha.. mak kau kesian kan kau lah art.. dia takut untuk kau.. mak mana tak sayang anak... dangerous tau naik motor.. haha..

then i went home with his fren, tis guy also've been takin lessons wit art.. he told me abt the lessons and stuff.. now i really really wanna consider takin it myself.. thing is should it be for a bike or a car... hmmm...

yesterday evening.. i was with my friends, niza and amin.. haha.. guess wat.. amin receive an sms from this girl.. hahaha.. perempuan rindu gile nampak? he ignored the msg.. reason.. girl attached... steady lah bro! baru kau tau apa aku rasa bila girl banyak msg aku... heheh.. partly sebab aku tak layan, pompuan attach babe..! bukan sombong! cukup time kene sembelih aku.. takut?

mana takut.. gua wild boyz babe! hahaha... wild boyz.. nama macam monyet monyet zoo...

i was discussing with amin and niza abt maybe making a a video.. thriller.. but amin dare not go to "those" places.. jgn setengah jalan amin bubble kita.. cabut lari pecut.. itu baru mau kene flying kick..! well.. now waiting for niza to prepare a script.. and the actors? hmmm... maybe we cast just one or two people.. or maybe use one of us...

let's do something adventurous or, maybe stupid, for a change.. go to haunted places and record a video there.. should be a memory... i'm realli realli lookin forward to it boy!

From the Heart

2004-09-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

I realised that nowadays my temper has been rather bad.. I'm no longer the gal that I used to be who's so bubbly and cheerful.. Probably this is the effect of growing up.. hmm... I dunno.. I noticed some changes in myself.. Drastic changes I mean..

Life changed tremendously eversince I stepped into NUS.. When I tot life wud be much easier after the horrible A Level, I guess I was wrong.. It became harder.. I have to take responsibility of many more stuffs.. In other words;be responsible for myself.. Make my own decisions etc... Being the "sheltered" gal, I find it hard to cope at first.. But I'm slowly coping I guess.. Life still has to go on no matter how sucky it gets ryte??

And yes.. I hate the Internet though I relied on it soooooooooo much.. For school purposes, I have the IVLE.. For social purposes, the MSN..My blogger.. And I hate this MSN stuffs.. I think it has ruined me.. True.. My social circle kind of grew.. But.. My emotional attachment to it also grew.. haha.. If u get wat I mean..

A few months back, I got to noe this fren thru "Friendster".. Hey! This was the avenue where I got in touch wif Ad too.. And boy.. the friendship blossomed till now.. and I even sumhow had a crush on him dulu.. Now?? NO MORE...cos he's attached.. I think he is.. Anyway, sumone advised me to juz let him go so that I wun feel disappointed anymore.. heeding the advise.. I think I am happier.. I think I am.. Ahh.. U guys will comment.. aik tak penah jumpa ada crush?? haha.. Hello!! Korang tk penah dgr the term online r'ship ke??wa ka ka.. But I'm nt those kind lah.. I prefer my bf to be in flesh terms.. If u get wt I mean.. I wanna be mesmerised by his eyes.. Feel warmth wif his hugs.. wa ka ka.. Romantic mood pulak aku ni.. haha...

haha.. I'm so disillusioned huh... and I am so sick & tired of guys asking me the same qn like this conversation:

[02:14:15 AM] Caci mAki sa: y not? ur bf?
[02:14:28 AM] -FaRiHaNa- I: BF??!!!
[02:15:04 AM] Caci mAki sa: yup... u marah? me tanye je
[02:15:28 AM] -FaRiHaNa- I: takde.. terperanjat jer..
[02:15:38 AM] -FaRiHaNa- I: does my face state I'm taken or sumting?
[02:15:54 AM] Caci mAki sa: hmmm kindda...y?
[02:16:57 AM] Caci mAki sa: and ur haapi y?
[02:17:09 AM] -FaRiHaNa- I: of cos ah.. takkan single nak sedih kan..
[02:17:23 AM] Caci mAki sa: heheheh tapi tak bored ke?

Gosh.. How shallow some people can be huh.. Seriously... Being single=bored?? I dun think so.. If I end up wif the wrong guy, I'll end up in misery pulak.. tak ke betul tu???

Anyway, back to my "friendster" fren... Till today, I dunno who is the real him but the mystery about him makes chatting wif him INTERESTING.. I noe frens have been telling me to "buat bodoh" wif him.. "delete him from ur msn".. Move on.. blah blah blah.. But.. In actual fact.. It's my life.. I need some colours and his presence is like water colour.. haha.. Maybe in the past,(a few months back), he has a major influence in my life.. But not anymore.. Hurting myself emotionally or physically doesn't do me any good.. I admit to have undergo depression when I had this major argument wif him.. But tu dulu babe.. Korang nak kutuk aku? Kutuk lah.. cakap ah aku kental.. Bt before u say anyting,firstly.. pretend u were in my shoes..

He might be reading this entry.. I noe he'll sumday.. This is wat I truly feel.. and sorry.. His identity will never be revealed..

U people may ask.. Why post in this blog and nt ur own blog.. Well.. I also realised I'm more honest in this blog.. haha... Mungkin sebab I noe more ppl are reading my own blog lah..

"True love" isn't so much a dreamy feeling that you have as it is an enduring commitment to give sacrificially --even, or perhaps especially, when you don't feel like it. William R. Mattox, Jr.

Reminiscing...

2004-09-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

Found this while browsing thru my saved documents.. Been thinking and thinking about what I've been up to in the past... And going thru history really makes me ponder.. I realised that my life is like the traffic light.. If no one presses the buttons, the traffic light might not turn to the green man.. In my case, if no one interferes with my life, my life will be without pain, misery etc.. hmm.. Doesn't make sense eh..Anyway, enjoy the chat log.. Identity has been sealed for privacy's sake..

If Onl:just that.. she treats you like a real person.. as in Hannah.. that you are someone that is in her daily life like me and A.. but the thing is,we are real.. you are her online fren.. so, I guess,A is afraid that you might be leading Hannah on.. Hannah really wants to meet you.. to see the real person.. circumstances do not permit so I guess Fren : i noe...i also nak tengok hannah If Onl: aku tak nak comment lagik about you and Hannah.. I dun feel like there is a need to make a big hoo haha about it.. tapi kesiankan Hannah.. jgn becos of A you are angry with Hannah lak.. Fren 2:i find all this girls crazy to go after me If onl:you hurt her.. that is one thing she will never forget.. If onl: haiz.. apa yang kau tengah buat is hurting her.. whether you noe it or you dun.. If onl: but, ever thought why are you ignoring hannah when the fault lies with A? what is her fault blah blah, to you? she was sincere and honest in the frenship, and yet you allow the comment of another to vouch for you abandoning her.. but, truly, you have slipped when you chose to leave HAnnah.. wat is her fault? apa salah dia? so wat if you tell A that.. wat the heck are you doing, ? If onl: Hannah has her own heart, her own feelings, her own choices.. If onl: and if she chooses you, then. she has no say in it.. Hannah is an individual who has the freedom to choose. And here's a poem I actually copyrighted from sumone's blog dulu.. Kalau dia baca.. Mintak maaf.. Saya curik poem.. hee hee..

hey..

i miss you you miss me?

i dun think so

you're probably doing something great rite now

while i'm just bumming around feel so stupid

my work's not even half done

its a little chilly out today

wish i had u here to hold close

and silence would be our lingua franca

and u noe my modus operandi would to be to

smell ur hair

damn i love ur hair

mine's not been combed since

coz i didn't noe who to present myself to

maybe i'll grow some locks..

nah..

wishful thinking. damn its so quiet..so cold..

i miss u

2004-09-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. This is the state I am in now.. Stress... Am going thru a rough patch trying to get things straight.. Thank U so much Adly for "waking" me up when I was extremely lost.. U were right.. We need each other.. I am lost now.. U are there for me.. when it's ur turn, insya'allah I'll be there for u.. bila agaknya my blog going on hiatus eh?? hee hee,,

2004-09-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

Long time picture.. Yati, me adly, and hazlina...

4 u..Adli

2004-08-30T01:28:00.000+08:00

Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, But among those whom I love, I can: All of them make me laugh.

Hmmm.. That is so true.. I've to admit.. There are plenty of guys out there that I admire, have a crush on, I like...those who I love always make me laugh.. Hmmm.. wat the hell am I trying to say.. weird.. I am so muddled too.. exhausted I guess.. But I'm juz reflecting on what is going on wif my frens.. Moz tgh ada r'ship problems.. haiya.. Kesian u noe.. This is when U seem to be glad u aren't attached.. U r free to flirt even if he's attached.. Free to do anyting u want..

Ok.. That makes me sound like some kinda bitch.. well, I chatted wif someone today who said that "I have loads of frens so I go out often.." hmm.. U guys think so?? I do have loads of frens since I am in Teater Variasi.. It kinda widen my social circle and sum more I am in the management, the bond is greater since we worked hard together.. I thought I could never click wif them since they weren't from the same background as me.. Despite the differences, we are great buddies..

I think being in Variasi sumhow is the wall stopping me from being committed.. U noe I have readings to handle.. admin stuffs too.. Kepala leh pecah dok.. And kalau ada bf lagi stress.. Tak sampai brapa hari dah break agaknya.. haha.. anyway, the Variasians are enough to entertain me.. I love them loads..

My girlfrens.. They have always been there for me episode demi episode.. My life is like some kind of drama.. Very happening one.. Aku rasa kau faham Adly.. I think I told u before kan.. Takpe kalau kau nak tau more.. Wednesday ni aku story k..

So Adly.. Dun forget our "date" this Wednesday yah.. We hang out at ur old neighbourhood where I'm living now.. And we can have a heart-to-heart talk yah...

have fun in school!! If u need me.. Call me up okies.. Sayaaaannnnnnngggggggggg Adly.. wa ka ka!!! Anybody jealous tak?? Hannah sayang adly tau.. hee hee.. :p

Back to singing..

2004-08-28T15:28:00.000+08:00

Ok now, its been awhile since i sing.. Tower of Power anyone?funk?raggae?oh yeah... shake that body..

hmmm.. tis is two yrs ago...

i looked at my pics during sec sch... pon macam takde perubahan je...

still the same skinny little boy... hahaha...

Today's thurday post

2004-08-26T11:37:00.000+08:00

Thursday morning.. nice... sunny day.. oh man, later the guyz are gonna come to my house and practice for tis sunday's IMM's show. haaaiizzz.. lazy to take out the equipment... well now, I've read farihana's comment on my last post. Gosh, i feel so bad having to trouble her; calling her whenever i feel bored or juz plain lonely... or yet beginning to think of that other girl.

It's good to know i have a friend.

you know what, it's like there's something similar between me and my friends.

It's like now is the period where someone feels down and needs something to rid him/herself of that loneliness, that boredom, that frustration, that depression.

Let's start with someone close:

Hannah, she is recently feeling lonely?(don't know if she still am) Frustrated, and really downhearted. (hmm.. maybe she still is, maybe she's not? temperamental)

Art, carefree and loves to slack around. But in silence, he feels he needs someone.

Syidah, she has got problems. Some relationship stuff. Feels tired, afraid, worried, and sometimes rather furious.

Ika, also faces a few problems with her soon-to-be fiance (compared with us, hers are considered minor).

Raziz, broke up with her gf. He's planning to get engaged with her soon, initially. He complained to me about her. Feel sad for the guy. But with his carefree and maybe a little child-like attitude, he'll be over her soon. Boy, i wish i have that particular characteristic of his.

Faidz, hmmm.. he said he was down. i don't know.. but i know he's ok now.. Lucky guy..

Well, it may sound selfish but sometimes i am glad that i'm not facing it alone.

hhhmm... don't know why i'm writing this stuff.. oh wat the heck... this thing is like a diary right? might as well write what i'm feeling now..

today, weird day.. again. and again...

2004-08-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

i woke up, oh gosh.. that feeling came again.. i keep thinking of Tini, that little girl from the East.

Apa ni!? i spent like weeks.. maybe months tryin to forget that person and the tot of her suddenly came in an instant. in just one moment. I'm physically sick.. isn't it enough? muz be emotionally sick as well?

haaiiizzz...

But.. hmm... i think its no big deal.. I'll live..

...Anak lelaki kan...

Eh, I've heard this song from "Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam"..

.."Pulangkan"..

Hey, it's not bad.. At first it sounds quite creepy and disturbing.. but then again..

when u listen to the whole song.. real romantic...

Anyway, the film isn't too scary, it's actually tragic, romantic and really ethnic..

Oh Man, nothing would interest me more in culture than those Javanese Gamelan stuff..

the women would dance to the sound of Gamelan, with grace and seduction.

The music, and dance; all beautiful.

but I heard this Gamelan stuff, "Kuda Kepang", sometimes they use some sort of "black magic".

Or maybe some stuff for entrancing the audience.

That might be the bad part.

but then the dance itself; i would look out for real proper dance movements and grace.

girls, don't think its simple.

Wirdani, told me that the warm-ups for this kinda dance is quite a challenge. ur hips and thighs can hurt. Silap bulan, patah pinggang kamu ya...

Well, now, it's right about 12:18pm. Juz woke up.. now wanna clean my house...

2004-08-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

I Love this pic a lot.. Taken today at West Coast Park.. Nice ryte?? Mcm kodak moment gitu.. The grass is clean anyway.. and the sea breeze were awesome

Anak siapa pulak ni eh? Astagha...

2004-08-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

AH! YANG INI ADLY TAK TAHU SIAPA.. INI BUKAN MAYA! hmmm.. siapa eh? oh a'ah.. ni anak sedara dia dari chua chu kang.. Hannah! rambut macam Predator.. buatlah dreadlock, baru raggae sikit .. baru cun..

"Ish, ni lah muka dia time malam pengantin.."

2004-08-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

KAN ABANG DAH CAKAP JANGAN PANDANG ABANG MACAM TU... TENGOK SKARANG! JANTUNG ABANG PON DAH STOP! CANTIKLAH TU...! actually maya, you ni cute jugak buat muka gitu.. tapi mata kena jaga.. relak.. maintain...

Inilah baru wanita, air muka suci terserlah..

2004-08-24T20:44:00.001+08:00

Yang ini sama dgn yg pertama cuma, yg ini dia tgh tgk aku... heheh... maya sayang, jgnlah pandang macam tu.. lemah degup jantung abang...

Ish, mata! Jgn pandang Adly macam gitu.. :)

2004-08-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

Ini pon cantik secantik cantik nye... actually, yg ini oklah.. menggoda.. tapi macam tak tergoda je... hehe...

My Maya

2004-08-24T20:41:00.000+08:00

Guess who is this? hmmm.. Ini lah kekasih ku Maya. Maya berkata,"Bila Bunyi Bersatu, Kau Milikku!" Adly kata, "Haha, takpelah, saya ada juga main drum, nanti saya kasi bunyi bunyi eh, maya sayang? Lepas tu awak nakkan saya, saya serahkan diri saya pada awak..". Guyz, cantikkan? lagi cantik dia jadi pontianak.. mengancam! rasa macam nyawa kita sendiri terancam.. Njoy!

When i was 13 yrs old.. cam real je, nak muda!

2004-08-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

yek eleh!!! CEY! eye to eye eh!?act sayang sayang pulak mat ni! OIT MAT!! sudahlah, berdrama lak! wake up wake up wake up!!! ni kisah lama!! masa 13 tahun.. do i look 13?? haha.. biar betol 13 tahun.... hehehe.... ni gambar pon si Adly amik sendiri...

2004-08-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

hey, found this pic in my pc... gambar lama seh... gosh, its been that long since.... betol nye lama..... tapi ni adly masih budak kecik, umur 13 tahun... guess who took the picture... ADLY!!! see! can pose and take picture!!

Let's Clear Things Up

2004-08-21T10:59:00.000+08:00

And so Hannah is back to normal again after the wonderful slumber and adequate rest and knowing that it's the weekends.. hahaha.. U guys definitely over-reacted huh.. Chill ah.. This is a blog.. U say whatever u wanna say.. Juz like a diary.. And well.. That's what I have been doing at least.. I write and hopefully some of u are kind enuf to analyse and be critical about my writings.. Dun worry Adli.. It isn't PMS.. Dun always blame girl's moodiness to PMS.. Kesian si PMS tu.. There are other external factors that can affect a person's mood.. If u guys understand.. And yeah.. Guys can be quite insensitive at times.. And they'll blame the lady for being too hard to understand... haha.. wat a joke.. Talk too much over this issue also no point..being single definitely is a blessing.. And I noe I am pretty.. Intelligent.. So I won't have a lack of suitors.. hahaha.. And I wished and wish.. for someone like that Hazriq guy I met at Esplanade.. So matured looking yet appealing.. I LIKE!!!

hannah, cut it out!

2004-08-20T16:45:00.000+08:00

hannah, as a friend, pls pls pls... be strong... dont be too mushy.. u'll weaken urself.. come onlah... look at me.. i have just faced a real bad experience with a girl.. with relationship... u say u have that strong desire to be in one.. come on.. my situation is worse than urs.. i'm kinda hurting.. but wat the hell, life goes on.. i'll live... dont realli need someone to live.... be strong...

WheN I am DoWn.. WheRe WeRe YoU??

2004-08-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

I decide to blog here instead of at my own blog cos I realised I have posted quite a few there juz for today.. Actually I am kinda upset.. I dunno why.. I can't pin-point exactly what is it.. but I know what some of the factors are..

school.... workload... Sleep.. Company...

And certain issues that bugs me.. I am contemplating on certain things that I shud have done a long long time ago.. It causes agony.. Emotional torment time n time again.. Life was never the same again since then.. I remembered Hannah in the past as the ever bubbly.. NO MORE TEARS kinda lady who wipes the tears of others.. And now.. I think I am the one who's constantly crying.. And it suck.. It definitely suck..

Sumtimes, I wished I hadn't ended it.. Sumtimes I wished I needn't have feelings.. It's times like this when u wished he is there hugging you with his warmth and whispering in your ears..

"it's ok my dear... I am always here for you"

haizzz.. I may sound pathetic.. I am so tired of being single.. I want some commitment.. I guess I am not good enuf to be someone's girlfriend lah..

Not pretty enuf.. Not tall enuf.. Not qualified enuf..

I am tired..

Think my life is a beautiful fairy tale?? I am a happy bunny all the time?? U got it all wrong.. Deep down inside, I am hurting..

2004-08-19T17:28:00.000+08:00

Wir, hmmm.. quite an old picture.. she looks even better now. kinda like the most gorgeous girl i've met...haaaiiizzz.... Lives near me... hehe.. boleh lambai dari tingkap...she's an airstewardess now..

2004-08-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

When i was 18, yr 1 ngee ann poly, i join a combo band.. hehe... sekejap nyanyi, skejap main drum... in the group picture, from left, "Fauzi", "Raziz", "Ashraf", "Adly"(Me in black shirt! hehe), "I forgot the name", "I forgot the name" and "Wirdani"... God, she's still lookin good. hmmm... Wirdani, the first and only girl i find interesting. She's direct, yet very very sweet. a matured person; something i looked for in a girl. dated awhile but... gosh, situation was bad at that time.. she's very very romantic.. i like...

Things which i do and people don't understand

2004-08-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

today.. i was thinking, and realise a thing or two about people.

There was this girl i knew and kind of like. We dated. Then, when i got to know her more, not just about her but her family; parents, i was told by her friends,

"do not tell her parents that ur a musician".

..ouch.. that is a little insulting. That's wat i like to be. I like music like alot.

Maybe it's a little part of me which i cannot hide.

The point i'm making here is that why must anyone look down on musician? no future? dirty industry? too much glamour?

hmmm..

i do not quite understand these people. But they have the right for theiri opinions though.

it's only that, if ur talking about future; Yes, i think it's very very difficult to strive in music. That's why i'm not in it as a career. dirty industry? yes, entertainment is kind of dirty sometimes, somewhere. But if ur intentions and methods of striving for success are well, which means it didn't go against the law, against the religion, hurt other people or hurt oneself, then i think it shouldnt be a problem rite?

I mean kadang kala kat masjid pon ada orang buat perkara2 yang datangkan dosa.

we're humans, make mistakes.

but i try to learn from it.

Glamour? haha...

sometimes during practice sessions, people can't even recognise the musicians. they look like a bunch of stressful people. Actually, sometimes it is very stressful. some just play music for fun. But me, i like to balance it out more. Fun and really work.

Next, sometimes i would sit down at the coffeshop or at cuscaden road (ming arcade), with my friends. How would people like this girl's parents react? hmmm...

"ini mat mat tak senonoh.. sampah!"

well..

Who knows, we might be talking about setting up business, or our own company.

Or even talking about life.Changing ideas and opinions so we can fix each of our own personal lives; a thing which i expected from this girl.

hmmm..

about girls....

what do i expect in a girl..??(relationship-wise)

understanding(haizz, tired of saying, coz i never had it), education wise??? don't have to be NUS, NTU standard, but must be street-smart! a little open-minded, and CAN COOK (Bonus)!!!

2004-08-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

Atika and me during the first time in a long time we see each other.. Kinda miz her.. this is my room by the way... look how sweet she is.. can't see her animore soon... ~"so near yet so far"~

New Layout!!

2004-08-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

Adli ku sayang... haha... wat a joke eh.. hee hee.. I hope u like what Syidah has done.. I like it.. U like tak?? Nice n simple.. And the intro very the true.. whatever it is.. If u intend to change anyting, I can easily tukar liao cos the basic template dah ada.. Wateva it is.. Take care of urself eh sweetheart ku sorang ni.. hahaha.. jgn stress ah.. insya'allah.. Dia akan call kau soon.. :p baik lah tuan putera.. Tuan puteri nak tido.. If u need me, buzz me ya.. Kalau tak angkat maaf.. Tengah ada kelas lah tu.. Dun miss me! Anyway.. Terima kasih Syidah!! Love u many many.. Dun sad sad ya.. Call me if u need me.. i finish class at 5 tomorrow.. what the??!!

quite a touching day today~

2004-08-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

Today, i found out that my long-time fren Atika is really gonna get engaged soon. oh man, can't hang out with her anymore. Everything about us are just memories. How wonderful it has been, knowing her since i was 14. Seeing her happy makes me feel so calm inside. A little jealous maybe. but never did i feel so happy for someone else. how lucky is she. Someone matured, dedicated and faithful to her. Her life is much better than mine. haaiiizzz... I'll dedicate this song "Open Arms", when i perform, for u my fren... *wink*

2004-08-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

Yeah yeah.. I finally had a trim.. After so long.. Whenever I am stressed, I cut my hair.. Thank goodness it wasn't a disaster.. nice or not??

2004-08-17T11:10:00.000+08:00

Talk alot about music! until in the early morning.. tomorrow still need to go skul early.. ah wat the hell! Abg Man is here, more important...

2004-08-17T11:08:00.000+08:00

After show, i slack with him at Geylang.. BAYA! MURTABAK TIGA!

2004-08-17T11:07:00.000+08:00

Macam Malmsteen kan? nope... this is Man Kidal and Ramli Sarip at Hard Rock!

Hangout with Man Kidal (Lefthanded)

2004-08-17T10:27:00.000+08:00

Last night, at ard 7:30, my Dharma guitarist msg me. I was told Man Kidal was in town. I immediately went to cuscaden with my old man. Then Abg Man called Eddy, he reached Hard Rock Cafe. We walked there and from far i actually saw two old-timer rockers. One is Boy Malmsteen and MAN KIDAL himself! Their dressing was a killer. The image is real strong. they haven't yet play and people are already seeing them as stars. "Garang Beb!" 1st up, it was Tanya Chua performing. three songs. bla bla bla.. hehe...

then Ramli Sarip and Abg Man came up. Oh boy... Ramli Sarip is rather humble. Even Tanya Chua greeted him with respect when she came down stage. but anyway... Yazid Lovehunter was there, Saha, and other musicians... old-timers... How much of a small-fry can i really be? hahaha... but anyway..

the show was really energy! After the show, Abg Man ask me, eddy, my old man, and Boy to go geylang, relak kedai kopi, makan murtabak! God, i saw Abg Man's fingers. the tip of the fingers are torn. No wonder he can get that heavy guitar tone. 8 hours of continous practice everyday.Not including sessions..

Dharma

2004-08-16T17:24:00.000+08:00

Ok, so much practice so little time... macam real je...

hmmm... last saturday, i missed the meeting with Fairuz "Jeff Talkin". Eddy already ask me to come down so Fairuz can fill me in on the recording. The hari raya song is quite easy. Its arrangement is not that bad but the vocal's tune is somehow rather typical. Macam lagu lagu achik spin. hehe.. Kental jugak eh..

~Metronome~

This word is really a big word for me during recording. No metronome, say goodbye to music professionalism. Its real difficult to play with a set tempo. I saw Misran "Energy", Douglas Olivero's drummer playing with metronome and MIDI live. I still far behind from that standard. ideas of drum beats is still limited in my mind. Oh man!

Now i need to go recording for the second time. And Fairuz and Addy will be there to monitor us record. Nervous senervous nervous nye..... haiiiizzz...

Boom Sound management messaged me;
29 August
is confirmed. Excited betol diriku ini..
IMM jurong east!!!!

where i watch Siti Nurhaliza, Warna and Ria events and etc, as a normal guy. A nobody. Now i actually get to play and be watched!!!! aargghhh!!! God, ur great!

*relax.. practice still havent done yet..*

2004-08-16T17:22:00.000+08:00

This 29 August, Sunday, we are going to be playing at IMM. Time? not confirm yet..but do come people!

2004-08-16T17:15:00.000+08:00

very the bright...

2004-08-16T17:14:00.000+08:00

Nice ey? oh man, this is like the first time i actually watched fireworks... the explosion the lights... fantastic, really different when compared to the ones in tv...

2004-08-15T13:11:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh... Cute nya the guy!!! Handsome... ARGHHHH!!!

Now, sunday morning

2004-08-15T10:46:00.000+08:00

Now is morning.. strangely, i sleep later and wakes up earlier than everyone else. And the usual, when i wake up, itz always the pain.

Physical: My body aches and my chest hurts.

Emotional: My heart hurts. (cam real je..)

Really need to solat man... cools me down..

today, i wanna go watch the fireworks but no one to go with.. haiizzz... alone again... takpelah.. juz go... hmmm.. y eh? alwayz in the morning the hurt is at its most.. damn.. oooppss... sabar.. mengucap...

2004-08-15T02:16:00.000+08:00

See lah.. hannah dah ngantuk.. This is how I look like when I am cranky.. Moral of the story.. Dun disturb when I wanna sleep or when I'm sleeping.. Nanti Singa ni MenGAum.. Ad.. U post gambar setengah masak.. I post gambar nak tido ah..

2004-08-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

this is my morning picture.. lepas mandi.. hehe.. my dear hana, nice? hehe.. i knw lah ni gambar setengah masak nye..got nothing better to do, just trying to enjoy my camera..

talk to the girl..

2004-08-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

today, we settled our problem.. but deep inside i still feel the wound. the unsatisfaction. WHy eh? hehe.. cakap je nak give and take, tapi susah nak buat.

actually i can give and take if she also does it... now comes trust. can i believe that she would change for me?if not for me, for the better? My old man alwayz say, i cant change a person unless

the person is able to change herself.

Her heart have not opened yet.

It's sad. real real sad...

just wish well for her and hope that her life will improve in the future... ego is really a pain.. just pray she will put off that thing.. sometimes when u love someone, and try to guide the person,

and u just cant and it's really really frustrating... and the disappointment and depression is overwhelming.. I for one, hoped too much from the other person. it's just a mistake i hope not to make in the future...

Bored...

2004-08-14T14:44:00.000+08:00

Good Saturday Afternoon!!

I am feeling extremely bored ryte now.. Finally the weekends are here after a horrible 4 days of school.. It was definitely exhausting... Nutting to do so I download movies lah.. Now on my list is the Notebook.. So Syidah u sleeping over my place to watch eh?? heehee.. bagus... Awak leh tolong saya re-dye my hair... hahaha..

So Ad.. Never see me online for juz one nyte miss me already ah?? haha.. ok joking.. Hopefully I'll see ya tmr ya Ad.. Me & Syidah dah plan tau.. so jgn buih kita ah.. Me dah semangat ni.. So if u dun see me online again, call me okies..

Sayang Adli... :p

2004-08-14T01:10:00.000+08:00

this is after the ngee ann gig.. realli tired and neardish.. my legs hurt, my body worsen after my accident, my hands blistered.. crazy ah? body havent recover still carry stuff.. haha.. anak jantan!

Np film media studies(FMS) gig..

2004-08-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

today was hectic.. real tiring... a long day boy! nine bands altogether... almost everyone played hard alternative rock. splitting headache sia... if only got like, raggae or something like party music, wouldn't it be better? sometimes it's irritating ah to listen to people play and don't care about sound balance and what kind of crowd are they playing to. as expected, school equipment cannot be like real good like the ones in clubs. ITS SCHOOL! yet people wants to play like all these Linkin Park and other american bands. Not say cannot, but must think about the situation. Linkin Park got top notch equipment compared to ngee ann's. The place itself is the np Atrium. AIYAH! LOTS N LOTS N LOTS N LOTS OF ECHOES AND REVERBS!crap!but quite good experience.. although a its kinda a boring one.. Oh yah, just now got mosh realli unbelievable... girls and guys moshing with each other. damn, the girls boobs got touched and squeezed... practically!! and they're ok wit it... astaragh... realli sad to see wat my fellow bros and sis has become... if my sister is in the girls' shoes.. haha.. my feet will be far up those guyz' ass, they'll be beggin me to just stab them and let them die immediately.. kesian ah tgk anak dara org kena molest cam gitu... no respect for girls sia...hmmpphhh... tomorrow got to see this girl from "the past". oh man.. just pray to God that everything will turn out fine.. I realli don't wanna fight with her.. Good no mood to do so..... oh yah, Farihana! mana kamu?! ur not online tonite! apa dah!

2004-08-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

Inilah masa kental2 dulu... band members

hee hee...

2004-08-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

Hello everybody!! My virgin entry in this blogger.. hahaha.. U guys maybe thinking.. Are we a couple???? hmm.. Keep on guessing cause we aren't gonna tell.. Not yet.. hahaha... In the meantime enjoy reading... So goodnyte Adli.. Goodnyte readers.. Hmm.. Adli.. Are we gonna catch the fireworks this weekend??? *winkZ*

today, weird day.. again..

2004-08-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

farihana appeared in my dream. NIghtmare? of coz.. the dream actually took place in malaysia. i was driven to a place with lots of factories ard, by this apek malaysia driver. he drop me off in the middle of nowhere. i straight away run to a shopping centre nearby.(pandai eh, shopping centre tgh tgh factory2) anyway, i expect my family to be there, but then no one seems to be ard... i feel so lost, so isolated, so alone... wat does it mean? God trying to tell me something?

2004-08-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

well now, today has been one of the most extraordinary day of my life. First of all, i met farihana in the damn 184 bus i normally take. then, hang out with her. We then meet syahidah. Hmm... pretty good bunch of people to talk with. Skali si Ismail ni datang! Mail gemok? no no no... oh boy, he tap my shoulder from behind and ask "kau tak kenal aku eh?aku mail ah". Oh crap! i'm really shocked and furious with myself! Oh God! he's change, enormously change! he is real real real slim. fitting shirt and tight jeans. Oh man! when he smiled then i realise its him. First time! God! First time seeing a real physical change! i don't even have the slightest idea who he is if he kept quiet.. Then meet my secondary skul social studies teacher, and i met two more secondary schoolmates.. oh man, things just keep getting stranger... oh yah... meet FARIHANA! my new website partner....

2004-08-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

~School Talentime champion Duet with Jasz Nalo~

Scan thru pictures.

2004-08-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

I'm browsing through my computer. Strangly enough i found dozens of pictures i don't even know i have.hmmmm... talentimes, music stuff...

2004-08-09T20:00:00.000+08:00

Posted by Hello

Dharma

2004-08-09T19:38:00.000+08:00

*take a deep breathe* this is my first time posting ya... so hmm.. let see.. today; is the most boring day ever.. tensions with this girlfriend. hmm... awww man.. didnt know that girls were that difficult. but! i don't know, maybe it is only her who is difficult. Let's talk about Dharma. Hmm, album launched. Gigs here and there. I actually am just waiting for the opportunity to get our name establish in KL. If we were to get a good label, gosh that'll be great.BUT! i got school lah... then NS. oh God, what am i to do? hmmm.. oh yah, yesterday, i went to Barnone, and watch my uncle play with his band NINE LIVES with Douglas Olivero there. Addy Cradle, established guitarist, actually knows me and notice that i was there. Flattering... BUT!(realized why i keep using this word?crazy sia!) still i have a long way to go in music. Don't even know i'm going to proceed in this line in the future. Insyallah, i'm gonna try my luck in this first.